My Dearest Blair,
You turn one year old today. Time has completely flown by us and I have a hard time grasping the fact that our first year with you has already come and gone.
I remember the day you were born as if it were mere seconds ago. You came into the world without a single fuss. It was a moment as a mother that I was completely in tune with what you and I needed. There is no science to explain it and when you were ready, I knew. Those first few hours and day were so beautifully peaceful and since then you have brought a presence into our home and consumed us with it in the most amazing way. I have learned in the past to never say never, but if I had to say with absolute certainty that there wouldn’t be another little one in our home, I am so grateful to have ended this season of my life with you. Such a sweet note to end on for this chapter of our story.
Perhaps it’s maternal extinct or perhaps it’s simply all in my head, but whatever the reason I feel that I have been able to truly enjoy the smallest of moments with you and that time has slowed by just a fraction so that you and I could truly relish in your “firsts” and possibly my “lasts”. And I am oh so grateful for it.
As I watch you today, I am holding on to all of the Sunday afternoon naps, the first smiles, that sweet baby smell, the quiet cuddles and all of the milestones over the past 12 months. I will watch you today and wonder about the coming years as you continue to grow, as we enjoy that beautiful peace and joy that you bring into our lives. I will cling to the smallest of moments. Because it is within those smallest of moments that I find myself.
Here is to your next year, my sweet Miss Blair. I am so blessed and honored to get to be a part of it.
With every piece of me and more,
Mom
June 6, 2014